Denise

Well well well...

It has been ages since I wrote anything on this blog of ours...Why is that so? I've logged on a few times, but was hard pressed to think of a topic interesting enough to match our previous entries. Being the perfectionist I am, it's either writing something good, or not writing at all.

Eunice and I went on our FIRST sisterly date. We (I) drove up to Ben & Jerry's at Dempsey, got a double scoop (cherry garcia and sweet cookies & cream), sat across each other outside the shop, and...stared at each other. And guess what I said?

Denise: "Tell me about yourself"
Eunice: "About what?"

hahahahaa....i think that obsessing about doing well in interviews has gotten to my brain..

That aside, the takeaway from that question was that even though we have been sleeping in the same bed (god knows why when she has her own room) for the past 3 months, and have been sisters for 16 (almost) years, we do not know much about each other! So I decided to pursue that conversation...

Denise: "Anything la! Your character, what you are like etc..."

Eunice: What do you know about me? I know that you are Bossy, Domineering, and 'another negative vocab that I can't remember'.

Great..Just as I was trying hard to be serious, the little bitch in her reared its monsturous head.

Denise: Great. Thanks. Do you know that the friends that i've made while i was away in india and barcelona will never use those terms on me? They think that I'm sweet, sensitive, crazy and fun.

Eunice: hahaha..snortsnort..hahah..HAHAHAHHAHAHA..

It was then i realized that not only did I have different personas for friends and family, I was also unable to reflect my 'new and improved' personality to those who knew me from before India and Barcelona. Even though I've changed after being away, those changes are slowly disappearing after I came back to Singapore.

Sociologists would say that 'who we are' is part of 'who they think we are'. Inevitably, your image of yourself is based on the image your friends and family have of you. Have you ever felt like you behave differently with different groups of people? Whenever I meet up with my secondary friends, I more often than not revert back to that clumsy, childish little girl that I was (totally not what I am now). At home, I am the always-in-the-right, domineering, bossy older sister. With my friends in Singapore, I am the high-achieving, confident, loud feminist.

Herein lies the problem. If ever we changed and became a better person, how do we go about changing that perception of us, without reverting back to who we were in the past?

Abrupt ending, I know...but my writer's block is setting in (and I have to get back to work). Now, let's see what my sisters have to say.